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Wednesday, September 12, 2007

One step away

Главное достоинство Стрельца - честность.
Главный недостаток Стрельца - брутальная честность.

Пойди разберись...

Though, in reality when I am angry I have to literally gag myself so I won't say anything. It's like black belt in karate - you don't want to fight anyone if you think you might accidentally kill them. The bad thing is bullies see it as a sign of weakness. They think you don't want to fight them because you're afraid and so they come for more...
But it's a different story.

Another bad thing is breakups. I simply suck at it. I was trying to figure out why some are easier than others and decided that it's a question of guilt. If it's their fault or I believe they need a wake-up call, it's a no-guilt for me.

"I like you, but you're not romantic. And it's a deal-breaker for me." That one was easy a couple of years ago.

But if it's a no-fault thing, and I just don't like him enough, I feel guilty as hell. And if there're real feelings involved, it's even worse. I hate, hate, hate doing it. "You are sweet, but you're just not very interesting." Who am I to say that? And so I say nothing. As much nothing as I can. And anyway, there are plenty of women who are going to like him for that. Because they are not looking for "interesting". They are looking for "stable" and "down to earth". And he is a treasure for them. See, it's always just one step away.

Peace.

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